The Principle of Existence

"We are all born for love. It is the principle of existence, and its only end."- Benjamin Disraeli

If there is no love in the end, then it is not truly the end.

Remember the little things.

Courage

Courage is the voice within that whispers: I will pick myself up and try again tomorrow.


I can't take full credit for that quote, pretty sure I read it on Pinterest. However, that's about where I am at with running. The race was brutal. I've come to the conclusion that situations like this one are completely out of my control. I've run much faster, so I know I am capable. I've put in the time, I've trained hard when it mattered and recovered when necessary. I raced smart, I didn't go out too fast. I've been eating right and drinking enough water, and I invested my heart in the race, not just my head. So the reasons for why I didn't run to my potential today were out of my control. Sometimes we have to face consequences we aren't responsible for, but that isn't an excuse to live in fear or despair. Maybe I will never run fast again, but maybe I will. Maybe someday I'll be running faster than I ever thought possible. Either way, I will continue to run. Tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow I will try again.

Courage is accepting your circumstances and looking beyond them. It's choosing to try when you are afraid of failing. Courage is accepting failure, not just once, but multiple times, and trying again anyway.

My Strength

"Yet I will rejoice in the LORD; I will take joy in the God of my salvation. God, the Lord, is my strength; he makes my feet like the deer's; he makes me tread on my high places." - Habakkuk 3:18-19

To God be the glory in my race tomorrow!

His Unholy Host

I wish there were more hours in the day! With 3 big papers due Thursday, I'm doing enough writing!! I'm working on a novel. Here is the premise:

His Unholy Host; a psychologically complex thriller fully emerged in supernatural experiences, paranormal beings, and an internal conceptual battle between the good and evil of human thought.

Thomas Neil is an experiment. He never had a father. He did not even have a sperm donor. Half of his being is in fact not human at all. He is unaware of the fact that he was artificially made. His body is shared by entities with a mind and emotions of their own. These beings exist on a level of reality humanity had previously left undiscovered.

In a time when there was no perception of time, these beings, called the host, were free to move and interact however they pleased. However, circumstances have changed. Science as breached the sacred gap between the biological, metaphysical and supernatural. Due to a series of unfortunate events, the host is now trapped inside Thomas’ body, desperate to preserve Thomas’ life, yet yearning to be free. Thomas, being only half human, is constantly faced with challenges in every-day social settings. When he finally understands his abnormality after being confronted by the host, he strives to overcome his weaknesses and adequately survive with the supernatural energy running through him, and save his life and theirs in the process. 

It's still in progress, but I believe it's a good start. I'm excited with where I'm going to take it. 

The Deadliest Attitude

I was reading this today in My Utmost for His Highest. The last paragraph really struck me hard because it is one of my greatest fears:

"'If we walk in the light as He is in the light...' (1 John 1:7). For many of us, walking in the light means walking according to the standard we have set up for another person. The deadliest attitude of the Pharisees that we exhibit today is not hypocrisy but that which comes from unconsciously living a lie."

More than anything, I do not want to reach the end of my life and realize I have been living a lie; to not just be a hypocrite, but an ignorant fool. I want the truth! I want the difficult, messy, hard way if that's what it takes to live a genuine life. It is one thing to want Truth, another to live it. Doing the hard thing takes sacrifice. Often, it is tremendous sacrifice. But if we do not have the strength to live in the Truth, then everything our faith is founded on was all for nothing. We have everything it takes to live genuinely. I will not die believing a lie.

"We must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ..." (2 Cor. 5:10)

God of Peace

God is not a God of confusion, but a God of peace. - I Cor. 4:33

Thank God for the peace he gives to us. No matter what the situation, if we trust that God is at the head of it, leading the way, what is there to be worried about? Clearly, He is the one in control. He only asks that we give it to him in complete surrender. He wants us, our circumstances, our lives. Yet, He would never take that from us, we must give it freely, as he has freely given.

May I put my desire into action - May I be more like Christ this week. Amen.